I Miss You.
September 22nd, 2009
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by Jodi · Filed Under: Ponderings
We had so much fun didn’t we? We would hang out and be care free. Ahhh, the days.
We would get up and just go run down the street to our girlfriend’s house for the heck sake of it. No, not walk—run…like a bat out of hell!…in shoes…from Coquettes…LOL!!
Life was spontaneous. We were spontaneous. We were in constant movement. Never ever sat down.
Being young was a gift that was taken so much for granted. Not thinking too much about the next day because we couldn’t stop laughing that day. Everything was fun, carefree and active. Vibrant.
Remember when we just ate? We didn’t care what we ate every day. Uncomplicated. Back then processed food just wasn’t an issue. We didn’t think twice about it. Food was on the table every day freshly cooked and healthy. We had a great childhood like that.
Unassuming.
The goal of every day was to top the joy of the day before. Sure we had bad times here and there (Hawaii, July ’81) but they lasted only as long as the event. Right after that we were back to loving life.
No post workout shakes. No amazing glute exercises, our butt cheeks already sat on our necks they were so tight! No worries about mixing foods, eating bad fats, varying cardio, making a PR, scale weight, skinny jeans and the like! It was just us with our endless love of activity (we didn’t call it exercise because we LOVED to do it incessantly) and our healthy relationship with food—all day long.
Our youth seemed endless.
Where did time go? Not sure how much we can reverse… L
It was amazing to have that time with you. I am sure we can get it back if we just try.
I really miss you, Jodi…
With all my love,
Your Alter Ego
P.S. Can you relate to the message behind this post? Not all of that pertains to me as I am sure the same for you but the essence is there. Tell me what you miss about you. Do you remember when? And can you bring it back? I am close to finding that woman again. She is in there peeking her little head out. And every so often I find myself skipping for no reason or playing tag with my kids (Who cheat btw, haha!) and think, “this is the life!” Drop some of what is weighing you down today and find her/him. And when you find them, hug them tight because they have missed you dearly!
Hmmm… very thought provoking.
This is so on time Jodi. Did you hear my alter-ego last night during our conversation or something?!?!
I love you for putting this into clear, concise BLACK & WHITE thoughts. I, too, am bringing “her” back and I am feverishly planning her welcome home party!!! I will be sure to invite you
p.s. What I miss most is that feeling of I CAN CONQUER THE WORLD–and nobody/nothing can get in my way! Can you relate?
Things I loved to do but don’t do any more … riding my bike everywhere, holding my best friends hand, singing loudly, walking a long way no matter the weather to get somewhere, playing on the swings and monkey bars (did it not hurt my hands back then?), and roller skating. And I did love very much eating mindlessly. Of course, in my house junky food was a treat (I’m not kidding, one of my sisters birthday gifts was a box of Capt Crunch! It was what she asked for
I miss that “I can conquer the world feeling”, too, Lindsay. I used to feel unstoppable. How are feelings of self-doubt and lack of confidence overcome?
Kim, I think that confidence is one of the major keys (if not THE key) to a happy life. Without confidence, think of all the things you do not do. I’ll tell what I don’t do.
-I don’t want to exercise.
-I don’t eat well.
-I don’t accept dinner invites from friends I haven’t seen in ages who happen to be in town for a night and are dying to see me.
-I don’t want to go shopping with my mom & best friend because I don’t like the way I look in anything.
-I don’t fly across the country to see a guy who might possibly be THE ONE.
-I don’t stand tall & smile proudly.
-I don’t put on my pretty girly outfits, rather I hide in long sleeves & sweats.
Wow! I could go on & on but what good does that do me? I have luckily been able to put a harness on these thoughts/feelings and recognize my lack of living. I know what makes me feel confident and I have promised myself to do what I need to do get that feeling back. Us women are smart creatures. WE KNOW what makes us feel good! So why do we waste one minute of our precious lives living without confidence? I would rather spend my minutes feeling like the unstoppable woman that I know I AM!
Be strong, start living!!
xoxo
I wasn’t that person as a kid. I became that person in my 40’s. I never sit down now. I run and play every day, around work and family commitments. I love life!
I had huge dreams growing up. I became mother to my 4 younger brothers at 8 years old. I cleaned the house,did the laundry,took care of my Dad and the house. I survived things that would shock people. I dreamed of an education, traveling and being successful. MY love for fitness came from watching my Dad use running, weight training and eating healthy as his way to cope with stress. He was a good man. But I find that I am still dreaming and working hard with no time or money for my dreams to come true. Great blog!!!
Ah…to be a kid again when my Mom would make us go outside to play! The interesting thing is I am very much free spirited like this even in my adulthood. I play like this with my niece and nephew…when I feel good about myself. I’m super playful and energetic with my colleagues…when I feel good about myself. I’m more likely to just enjoy the fun of the day and not let any stressors weigh me down…when I feel good about myself.
So when did this ‘feel good about myself barrier’ stop me from being me? Interesting.
GREAT POST! I love it… the thing I miss the most is not worrying how it will all work out. How I am going to fit it all into my day. What a gift childhood is! I really hope my children are enjoying it as much as I did!
Thanks for making me think!
Dang Jodi…right on time yet again my all knowing friend! Cathy can tell you about the email I just sent yesterday, and you will be able to figure out the “me” I miss
Hey Girl,
I need to come to your blog more often! You KNOW YOUR SHIT for an uneducated woman!!!!
Luv you to pieces.
Keep it up!
xoxo, J
Lindsay: You are too fabulous to feel that way mama!! We are ALL too fabulous to feel this way.
Kim: Believe or not–you just stop feeling that way. Somehow it just “clicks” and you realize you’ve been fabulous all along. You have to be “buying” in to that to feel that way. Stop. Do not sell yourself short. Time is too fleeting.
Seanna: You are a goddess for sure! I say we sing loudly next time we get together!
Sandi: That is soooooooo awesome, girl! For real! I really am not that far away from skipping for the heck of it!
Lynn: You definitely deserve to break into reckless movement and silly laughter! You deserve endless happiness topped with unlimited joy! I hope you find it, mama! I want that for you badly!
Tara: And every other woman on this blog…stop letting your outside define your inside! Unless you became a loathesome creature who preys on young children, there is never a time you should feel “bad” about yourself. No matter where you are physically, you are still the same blessed soul who has everything to offer…I’ll be darned before a little box tells me I am not worth something!
Angie: You so hit the nail on the head! That’s what i miss! When I just didn’t care! When it all worked out no matter what! Thank you for stopping by and thank you for getting “it”!!
Kia: Hey girl, you shouldn’t be missing anybody. You have EVERYTHING going for you at your fingertips! BELIEVE. Did you miss that? BELIEVE!
Jodie: Thanks girl! I love you, too! I thought I had a degree but I guess not!LOL I’ll keep working on it!haha:o)